weirdo ass bitch!

why was this ugly cancer stick suckin' broad following me around the bus stop yesterday?

i don't know what it is, but i draw the hell out of crazy people. perhaps it's the fact that i'm just that imbalanced my damn self. either way, this nut sparks up & decides to follow me around when i got up to move away from the friggin' smoke.

i hate cigarette smoke. that's a nasty burnt chemical ass smell. worst of all she had a little kid w/her. that shit really pisses me off 'cause of the health problems my egg donor caused w/her shitty nicotine addiction.

i should've tried to run across the street so she could follow & get hit by traffic. what a dumbass. fucking freak...

she wasn't even cute. completely bodiless. yuck. sheesh.

make like this nutjob didn't get on the same bus i take to the gizig...

PEACE
...be calm...

mike ain't dead...

wow...

i can't believe this shit. am i a fan? hell's yeah. of his music anyway.

i have to say i dig the older shit mostly. Dangerous was a nice surprise. Teddy Riley hooked that shit up.

would i leave my kids w/Mike? hell's fuckin' no!

i don't think he molested either of those kids, but i'm always going to have a problem w/a grown ass man sleeping in the same bed as strange children. that's just weird. that's Mike: weird...

i don't think he's really dead though...

being dead is a great way to get out of 50 concert dates that you can't keep & however many millions of $ you owe. dead artists sell lots of music...

make like Farrah Fawcett didn't die on the worst possible day...

PEACE
...be calm...

i hate giving away $$$...

capitalism breeds so many predatory business practices. it's truly sad that so many humans accept these practices. it's even more sad that so many are willing to not only accept such practices, but continue to perpetuate them.

i fucked up & forgot to pay on a credit account. the fuckers got me for a $29 late charge. i can't complain about that, 'cause i know there are late charges. the problem is the general idea that this shit is an acceptable way to conduct business.

think about it, credit companies will only make money off of the fees they charge merchants, unless consumers carry a balance. the system is essentially set up to exploit your financial difficulties. financial agencies that do not charge the consumer an annual fee are clearly expecting to earn from the interest created by carrying a balance.

this is an amazingly perfectly legal business model for financial services in this society. i guess it's not as bad as insurance...

AIG anyone...

make like insurance isn't the sickest legal scam in existence...

PEACE
...be calm...

visitations from proliferia...

i have always been steered by creative energies in life. seems sometimes this is at odds w/my logical aspects. i would have to admit to a favoring of my left brain, but my right brain does not fuck around like that at all.

my respect & love for art in its various forms has always been something that brings me great peace in life. this is true for poetry, music, photography, painting, sculpture, drawing, etc. not to suggest that i create using all these mediums, but i do find peace in experiencing the creations of others, if not my own.

when i was a kid, i used to write stories & make comic books 'n' shit like that. i still come up w/story ideas, skits, scenarios, etc. my lack of focus kicks me in the ass w/follow through on most of these ideas. fortunately i'm aware of this & i try to work against it. it is highly unreasonable to expect to achieve any significant level of progress w/o focused effort & persistence.

make like i'm not my greatest hater...

PEACE
...be calm...

i lied...

i said i'd never wear anything w/spandex in it...

oops...

in the search for drawers that don't cause discomfort i found myself copping some fucking Jockey drawers.

guess that means i lied 2x, 'cause i said i'd never wear Jockey's either...

these motherfuckers are comfortable...

fuck it.

make like Conan's not a nut for bringing this big ass statue up into the studio...

PEACE
...be calm...

wow...

talk about getting shit on...

i just typed a good page or so blog entry & blogger and/or my browser just said, "fuck it." dunno how that happened.

don't feel like reshaping the content. i'll have to rework it later.

i was supposed to be posting daily this month, but that clearly has not happened.

it's not all bad. that means i'm actually busy doing life shit instead of being in front of a goddamned monitor typing shit onto some web interface or social networking site...

imagine that...

make like i dig booking my face or catching up on what the twits are doing...

PEACE
...be calm...

minor parenting malfunction...

one of the greatest experiences as a human is to help a young human understand society and learn how to operate amongst fellow humans w/o increasing the level of suffering of all parties involved.

sadly, many humans cannot honestly claim to have done the above. some of us actually create new levels of suffering in the effort to educate our young humans.

it is oddly ignorant to forget that children are only different from adults with respect to experience, physical & biological development. people will smack the shit out of a child in the name of punishment, which is often confused w/discipline, but would never do such a thing to a peer.

wouldn't it be great if i could smack the shit out of the bus driver who makes sarcastic comments when i ask if the bus sign indicating the direction of travel is correct? PLAP! don't sass me you smart assed bus driver...

quite absurd...

i don't think corporal punishment is effective. the side effects are not worth the overall results. fuck it. i speak from personal experience as a child & a parent.

i've had slip ups w/my godren. the truth is that such behavior towards young humans by adults is usually reactionary & highly emotional. not much in the way of a lesson to teach respect & discipline by threatening & beating the godren.

it's an evil & difficult cycle to break.

make like i enjoyed being abused by my egg donor...

PEACE
...be calm...

reflections of the universe...

i find the things that give me the most pleasure in life are those that reflect the beauty of existence.

various animate & inanimate objects serve to create these impressions. a singular favorite of mine is the beauty of women in general. this isn't necessarily a sexual beauty, but i suppose it'd be hard to completely separate the type of beauty i truly appreciate from sexual attraction. let's just say that sex isn't always necessary to appreciate sexual beauty.

nudity is not an issue for me. i'm not going to win any bodybuilder contests anytime soon, but i'm not uncomfortable w/my body's appearance either. that said, i am very into shape(s). symmetry is extremely appealing. bodies come in all different shapes & sizes, and various combinations create many beautiful appearances. the most beautiful to me are those that reflect symmetry.

understanding the human body & the balance of nature does not require symmetrical perfection. it's more of a physical balance. what does that mean? tits, ass, legs? sure, but even arms, neck, eyes, lips, ears, feet, head, etc. yes, i'm talking the whole body. this is why women who possess such balance are so attractive. it's not something that is frequently seen.

i saw someone today who reminds me of such balance. i don't generally forget these images. one of the reasons why i'm such an avid consumer of porn is because you can readily find naked women who seem to be comfortable w/their bodies. if that makes me a perv, then fuck it. i figure i'm not into harming anyone, & i don't dig younger chicks at all. WTF is that about...

i find women who exhibit natural physical symmetry are reflections of the beautiful nature of the universe...

make like muffin tops & spandex are a blessing from the universe...

PEACE
...be calm...

how do you spell bullshit?

i spell it:

g-e-t-t-i-n-g h-o-m-e a-t t-e-n w-h-e-n i g-o-t o-f-f a-t e-i-g-h-t

gotta love taking 2 hrs to make a 20 min trip.

i was working on a new track idea, but that usually doesn't go all that well when i'm beat (no pun intended). i'm fucky buck tired as iggle deans.

stopped taking vit'mins, 'cause they ran the fuck out. it seems i've been sleepier since i stopped taking them. could be psychological, but i may stay off'em. i can actually go to sleep in the morning when i get home from the gig...

...after my 2 hr commute....

YAAAAY!!!

make like i'm not 'bout to go see what the quizzy put in the mizzy for my grizzy...

PEACE
...be calm...

hey...

...WTF is up w/the American Apparel ads on the back of the weekly paper. it's my understanding that the dude that owns/runs the company has been involved in sexual harassment. keeping that in mind, why in the fuck are all the back page ads on some young jawn sexually suggestive tip?

most of these females are scrawnsville & look either unsure and/or insecure in the images. could be i'm reading into these joints, but some of these jawns have the deer in headlights look to'em. what is this guy doing? who the frick is the photographer? makes you wonder.

i recall there was one that said the photo shoot was in an apartment owned either by dude or the company. that just doesn't seem quite right at all.

i'm quite open minded when it comes to sexual materials, but this is a little weird.

make like Orlando has any chance whatsoever of upsetting LA...

PEACE
...be calm...