deteriorating condition...

so...

i used to be organized.

i used to ride my bike all over the city.

i used to do quite a few things that i just don't seem to be doing at the present. it's disturbing.

i used to be working at a gig i couldn't stand.

now i'm trying to figure out where the fuck am i gonna gig. WTF...

my entrepreneurial endeavors are doing as they usually have thus far in life...nada...

a lack of consistent focus can fuck your shit up real bad.

it's not too useful to have 50 million ideas & not to follow through w/1 of them.

the only thing i seem to have some grip on is K.I.M.. problem is where exactly is it i'm moving to...

i've got about another 40-50 years left of natural finitude. obviously that's not guaranteed, but i'm not particularly enthused about living the remaining years as i have the previous 20.

no thank you!

i can't stop, but that doesn't mean i need to move forward w/a bag full of broken shit on my stick either...

make like i've got it all figured out...

PEACE
...be calm...

the meaning of infinite...

whoa!

i've been missin'...

shit's just been as it always has. foraging through my reality & trying to sort the finite from the infinite...

this ADD shit is deep. doesn't change the frame of reality just perception of such. my comprehension does not at all negate my godly essence. in fact, it makes my daily struggles that much more irritating.

comprehension of the finite reality is required to balance these discrepancies between expectations & actual results.

i'm working it out as it is. some days are fucking horrible. some days are mad + w/upliftment. the goal is to increase the + while minimizing the -.

this summer's been a particularly rough 1. as always my finances are an issue. at least now i have some more depth of comprehension of the nature of my finite issues. a lack of focus is a severe detriment to accomplishing any goal.

am i fucking up, or am i fucked up?

the answer is not as important as creating an environment where it doesn't become necessary to ask such a question...

BOOM!

make like comprehension is not essential...

PEACE
...be calm...