not bad says i...

the 3rd that is...

thought i was gonna come up short this month as compared to the last few. i suppose by sheer numbers i may have, but considering the amount of web content i'm currently generating, this isn't bad...

i need to take a dump, wash my ass, & straighten out my damn clothes. i have yet to sleep today. WTF is wrong w/me? i'm hyped. aight, fuck it, i'm going to watch Florida whoop that ass...
make like i don't have to take a leak right now...

PEACE
...be calm...

universal will hurt you...

so i'm making my grind  journey yesterday PM & i came across my spiritual belief path somehow. not really important how, but what.

what?

what is the fact that no one can dispute that humans are an aspect of the universe. as an aspect of the universe, we are the universe, because the universe is all things & all things are a part of it. by the universe being infinite, all finite things are a part of it.

this means that we are god. calm down, this does not mean we can fly or anything idotic like that.

how?

because the universe is god. god is infinite. there are not multiple infinite things. there is 1. 1 infinite whatever it is. the only things in humanly observable reality that are infinite are time, the universe, energy, & whatever concept humans seem to have developed about god.

make like reality lies & human perceptions always tell the truth...

PEACE
...be calm...

to smash or not to smash?

what is a coward's fate?

to be controlled by fear until the challenge has been faced. i am not afraid to die. i am actually willing to say i am not afraid of a gun. i'm not trying to get killed, but i'm not afraid of death either.

there is such freedom in not fearing the ultimate ending of physical existence. can't say for sure that the spiritual continues after physical ceasement, but is that any reason to fear death?

too many people are too afraid to live because they're afraid of dying. fuck that. no fear of death, no fear of life, no fear...

make like the gigavisor is not a flaming coward...

PEACE
...be calm...

the tactics of manipulators...

...so i'm working these networking opps on acebook. this is not really work, but it is. essentially i engage & interact w/the peeps on my list who actually communicate. sadly some seem to only desire to broadcast their thoughts, wishes, & desires for the world to see. fortunately everyone does not seem to suffer from such vanity.

so again, i'm working the networking & some positive dialogue occurs as relates to the socio-politcal climate of the world. i mention that divide & conquer tactics coupled w/apathy is what keeps the status quo. the other acebookian responds in agreement, but from past status updates, it appears this person is a Christian of some sort. why is that significant?

what is the most common divide & conquer dynamic in current human relationships?

r-e-l-i-g-i-o-n

even within particular faiths, there is always division & disension. this only goes to show that humans do not all believe & function the same way. a perfectly universally reasonable observation. the problem is that wars have been waged by humans over perceived religious significance. what better way to keep the larger population occupied while you orchestrate various schemes & plans at their expense....

just a thought...

make like religion is not the ultimate divide & conquer technique...

PEACE
...be calm...

ha motherfucker...

i just realized that i can schedule posts to show up at some later date & time. GTFOH! i had no idea this was an option.

SWEEEEEEEET!

the fam met Melvin Van Peebles tonight. i'm salty as shit, 'cause i could've met this awesome creative as well.

he has a graphic novel. they got a signed copy...

SWEEEEEEEET!

i'm geeked. education is awesome. the wizin attended this event to cover a class assignment on African culture. do it...

i am really feeling this creative energy. it has brought a great new appreciation for life, even in times of harsh struggle, perceived or actual.

creatives are the shit...
make like i have had to work w/the slouchy dude at the gig

PEACE
...be calm...

using the mind to violate ears in my circumference...

my goal is to kill the world w/music...

i am on a mission. my entire life i have wanted to be 2 things more than anything else:

1. an astronaut
2. an artist

#1 is not happening any time soon. last i checked the govt. agency where i gig is not affiliated w/any interstellar travel duties for the govt. guess that's a good thing, 'cause that'd be a fucked up space program.

#2 is ongoing...

i am so creation oriented that i feel comfortable saying something so ambiguous as "an artist." i thoroughly enjoy the process of bringing newness to light/life...

if i had to be pinned down to exactly what kind of artist i am, i'd have to go w/musician and/or composer. more specifically, i should say i am an emcee/producer/engineer. i l-ve music.

i shall repeat:

I L-VE MUSIC!

is that a typo? nooooooo....

it's what i do. i live & love music. since the same set of letters covers both, i decided to just say fuck o-i. it has an interesting look this way: l-ve...

i l-ve music...

i shall now return to killing the world w/music...

make like i'm joking even a little bit...

PEACE
...be calm...

i've found that people are somewhat uncomfortable w/referring to humans of European descent in the U.S. as European. this is su-ronically humorous. why when you have Asian, African, Arabic, etc. Americans is it such an odd thing to say European American?

realistically, i have a problem w/being referred to as an American. there are 2 distinct continents known as the Americas. how is it that citizens in this particular region are deemed to be the sole holders of the name American's. seems quite arrogant.

either way, if applications say i'm an African, then they should call everyone else by their genetically perceived label. as such, you have Europeans...

WTFP?

make like i don't work for clown management & there's no circus at work...

PEACE
...be calm...

fuck Mac...

it's nothing personal. i'm just tired of the foolishness that gets spouted off by Macjocks. i'm no PCjock, bu com'on.

i use PC's 'cause they're less expensive to own & operate. even more importantly, i can run up in my PC & tweak the hell out of it when i so desire. can you say highly configurable?

i keep trying to tell people that Macs are for those who do not understand the inner workings of technology so well, and/or do not have the time to spare on such matters. a Mac is generally not superior to a PC.

it's more about preference than anyting else.

so few people realize that a computer is simply a tool & what really matters is the final product. the suggestion that a PC is artistically ineffective is absurd.

GTFOH!

so on that note, i'll likely cop a Mac 1 day, but not until i'm rolling in the loot...

make like you can't be creative on a computer w/o a Mac...

PEACE
...be calm...

just a wee bit...

it's highly likely that the post count here is going to drop significantly. seeing as how i'm populating acebook, witter, yspace, & at least 2 other blogs. i communicate effusively, but even i have limits. i'm not going to post just to be doing it.

i do enjoy being able to freely express my thoughts, dreams, wishes, aspirations, & whatnot. that said, i will be returning here to think, vent, & share those life tidbits deemed as necessary to recall at some later point in human time.

in short, i will continue to beast on the media...

make like i can find my goddamned cellphone...

PEACE
...be calm...

clearly you're a cowardly idiot...

ah yes, so my current managerial overling is certified foolish.

how do you have a worker who willfully does what you supposedly have clearly told them not to do & you do not relieve this person of their employment? WTF kinda bullshit is that?

as some would say, what part of the game is that?

looks like i'm making a trip to the HR department to file a formal complaint against someone in the near to immediate future. i hate asshole supervisors. where do these flacks come from? are all the quality managers at jobs where i don't work?

the positive in all this nonsense is that i realized i need to grind much more efficiently.

make like the gig is worth any of the stress it causes...

PEACE

...be calm...

a throwback holdover...

quite redundant i suppose.

regardless, being a universal spiritualist, i tend to thank the universe for revelations & life lessons. this week's events at the hated gig are an excellent example. i procrastinate far too much considering my level of talent & potential. these would be holdovers from the low self-esteem days. sad...

the events cracked my god time into brief sync w/common time. i need to get my ass moving & groovin' to get the fuck outta this gig. i have to kick my true career in the ass & get it moving forward at a more productive pace. i am audio. i have to be what i am & do watido as i like to witter...
and here's the throwback:

growing up as a Christian, imagine that, i was taught to thank god for the positives. i guess i was just supposed to ignore the negatives. no, i almost forgot, the negative shit was all the devil's fault. imagine...

fuck all that.

back to the throwback...

i still thank the universe for my lessons & perceived blessings. the huge difference is that there are lessons in the negative situations as well. as such, i thank the universe for all my lessons. why is this a throwback? based on the core of my belief as revealed by the universe, it does not quite matter if i thank or not. the universe just is. it does not need or require explanation. it answers to no one, especially not a singular individual in its infinite reality.

imagine that...

make like all things in existence including humans are not as grains of sand...

PEACE
...be calm...

there should be a stick for asshole management...

so you can beat them when they fuck up. i suppose it's a good thing there isn't such a thing, 'cause my arms would be sore from swingin' right now...

how do i manage to run across all these dickean management types? maybe it's the gigs that i'm working. whatever it is, i know if i work for me, i won't have to deal w/dickean behavior from anyone but potential customer/clients. a much better arrangement than working for a dickean is taking a dickean's $$$.

all jokes aside, i do not particulary like the reality deposit that was made this week. gotta see what happens next w/the gig. nutty ass manager didn't do his job, so i had to force his hand. how can you be so ineffective as a manager that you have an employee taking 2hr breaks during a shift where only 30min breaks are permitted?

fuck that.

make like this guy isn't a fucking coward...

PEACE
...be calm...

did i say i l-ve this music shit?

i'm really l-ving this thing w/the music.

i feel real good w/it right now. let's keep it movin' is the vibe whenever music is doing what it do.

this blog may get light over the next few weeks & months. i'm spreading my seemingly endless communicative energies across various sites & endeavors now.

this is really working for me creatively. i'm at the point now where i can go back & listen to old shit & be like "wow, i did this?" at the same time i can feed off of myself. & yet again i am still pretty absorbent w/o being a fucking biter w/other folks artistic visions & expression.

assets. gotta acquire the fuck outta these assets in this shitty ass capitalist society. i may not dig it, but i'm not changing it by myself & not enough cats want it changed apparently. gotta use it to fight it. use it to benefit the perpetuation of positive human experience...

make like i'm just like everyone else...mr. status to the motherfucking quo...

PEACE
...be calm...

must be given to be earned...

R-E-S-P-E-C-T...

when i make my way, i'll be hard pressed to shout my g-donors. egg or spizerm, they really did a number on my overall psyche...

i learned things from both of them, but the knowledge had to be weeded out through many layers of bullshit & burden. believe, i love them, but too much of my life's baggage was inhereted w/no regard for my state of mind...

the positive of this is that i try to acknowledge & alert the godren of my humanistic flaws. i also apologize to them when i fuck up as humans do. it is my hope that my honesty will give them the means to reflect positively on our time together in this universe.

i l-ve my fam...unconditional...even the 1's i don't fuck w/...

make like you have to fuck w/fam members even if they're crazy as shit...

PEACE
...be calm...

what it be...what it is...what it do...

for some reason i thought Craig Ferguson was going off the air. perhaps, & hopefully so, i am/was mistaken. dude is pretty fuckin' funny. odd, but pretty goddamned funny. it's like watching Noah's Magical Ark for grown-ups.

Jimmy Fallon's show sucks polyp laden hemorrhoidal ass. i'm pissed about that 'cause i dig The Roots. been a Roots fan since i 1st heard Pass The Popcorn. if someone could just replace Fallon w/Ferguson, that'd be su-awesome....

one can dream can't one?

make like Fallon's show is the motherfuckin' 20 megaton bomb...

PEACE
...be calm...

and i said let there be light...

then behold, the fucking sky was filled w/the sounds of melodius funks & rhythmic distortions of reality...

i love making music. i'm settling into this shit more now. that producer's block a few weeks back almost did a # on me. that shit was good though.

1. 1. it showed me how 2 get out of 1 in the future...
2. 2. it made me focus on what moves me 2 make tracks anyway...

the fun of it makes the shit so much easier. it's not even like i'm working most of the time. i luv this shit....

make like i'm not fi'n 2 put my teef on somfin'...

PEACE
...be calm...