now what...

i have recently come to the realization that i have not done enough to make self relevant to other humans. this isn't on a personal consideration basis, but more on a beneficial social interaction basis. specifically i have not secured enough knowledge/skill for me to commodify self. for some odd reason i thought this would no longer be an issue once i earned my undergrad degree.

ooops...

so, does this mean i have no skill/talent? no. what this does mean is that i have not spent enough time enhancing my natural abilities to the point where other humans will readily part w/their income for whatever it is i'm doing.

simple version: i currently seem to have little value as an employee.

it isn't that i don't have potential. it's more a lack of refined skill & the fact that i seem to require a particular environment to get the most of self. i am too susceptible to distraction. i continue to develop comprehension of the ways AVD affects my finite functioning. there are activities that i should have been participating in on a daily basis that i have neglected. the result is a rather large gap between where i would like to be & where i actually find self.

practice does not make you perfect. it does make you better, & i have not gotten too much better at certain skills that would enhance my commodification status. this situation itself is not unusual. what makes this unusual is that i am just figuring out the specifics of this after being on the planet for 4 decades.

it really isn't a matter of being late. the issue is how to alleviate the problem & keep moving in a productive direction. there is much work to do, & i remain highly distractible. it is what it is...

i figure my best option is to be an entrepreneur, but i still have to be able to provide some value in service or product. i have been working on this issue for over 20 years. it's quite disturbing to see quite clearly that i have not yet solved the problem. i know this: there is no solution that does not require great change on my part.

the struggle continues...

make like i've got it all figured out...

PEACE
...be calm...

a universal dilemma...

when is it appropriate to begin teaching humans their true nature?

this is a consideration of how a finite physical reacts to the idea of being told they are actually infinite in nature. i would imagine that many humans would not put such an idea in its proper universal perspective. i may have discussed this idea previously, but i find that this progression of thought strongly supports the argument for religious practices. my problems w/said argument are essentially unchanged.

why not tell humans the truth? empower them. there is the strong possibility that many of them will not properly be able to comprehend the idea & the responsibilities associated w/it, but the search for increased knowledge is a part of our universal momentum as finite beings. how so? the more knowledge we accumulate the more we close the inherent gap between our physical & universal states. confusing people w/these artificial institutions of spirituality has not created a better world. the fear that humans will not act responsibly if told who god really is not a reason to keep lying to them.

if we are taught from our earliest stages of finite cognition what our true position is in the universe & how to uphold our responsibility as such, how much different would society be? the only way to find out is to do it. clearly this is not easy. much of the human species has been struggling w/essentially the same issues of violence, intolerance, & universal ignorance for thousands of years now. this has to change, but it will not until the nature of god is revealed in true light. this may take many generations to occur, but it has to have a start in 1 1st. we are all god. we can make the necessary changes. we have to begin w/the truth & grow w/our collective knowledge. god is...

not he, not she, but we...

make like the infinite is irrelevant...

PEACE
...be calm...

message to the missing in mind...

there may be a way. if you don't stick around long enough, you're not likely to find it!

in order for others to consider you valuable, you must create value that they can appreciate. this does not mean if no one values what you create you are not valuable. it just means that if others do not see value, how can you expect them to express any appreciation for it?

continue to create. even if it means value will not be seen until your finite isn't...

make like value is not arbitrary...

PEACE
...be calm...

ouch!

apparently i've screwed up my backial area. it's been bothering me since the last week of December.

not good...

went to the e-room, but they didn't do too much since i am [DENH! DENH! DENH!] uninsured. how therapeutic is a 3-4 hr wait & a prescription for 800mg ibuprofen? supposedly i have a muscular strain. i would be fine w/said diagnosis if the shit had gone away in about a week or 2. did i mention my bones are making noises? i'm moving around like friggin' Igor or Quasimodo.

i'm thinking about checking out a chiropractor. i'm supposed to be trying some acupuncture too. pins 1st though. i'll try the chiro if the pins are a no go.

sheesh!

make like ailments are sexy...

PEACE
...be calm...

seeing beyond the eyelids...

for whatever reasons, many humans seem to lack vision. being that we are all finite physically, this isn't entirerly shocking. however, some of us fail to look outside a limited range of vision.

it's like a psychological counterpart to the 5 block radius phenomenon. if you never travel beyond your neighborhood outside of this 5 block radius, what experiences do you miss? lack of experience = missed opportunities. experience can teach you in 2 ways:

1. learning how to do new things correctly
2. learning from doing old things incorrectly

if you do not travel you limit your opportunity to accumulate knowledge. this is true both psychologically & physically.

make like change is to be feared...

PEACE
...be calm...