yerp, my fam is straight craze. my moms died about 2 months ago. too bad she wasn't a vampire and the mental illness i inherited from her died with her. sound crazy, but so what. besides, i'd still be infected by the crazy from pops side.
i'm in a somewhat reflective mood. some potential good from moms dying is my re-established contact with some of my 1st cousins. apparently, we're all crizzle. not like i didn't know that already, but sometimes it ain't so bad when you know you're not the only one. it's not really any consolation, it just gives you something to relate to sometimes.
speaking of crizzle fam, my younger sister is true to the genes. i always hoped that she would break away from our mom like i did, but apparently she is unaware of how the darkness consumed her life. she actually said to me that she believes she has/had bad karma. unless our mom changed her name, karma ain't the culprit. i thought we may be able to rebuild since mom is dead, but sis is to fucked up 4 me. she's on some other dumb shit that i ain't even tryin' to share. i should've known better. u gotta wonder about somebody who actively embraces a known family loony after recently escaping an initial one. either way, loony or not, there is still common courtesy.
we were supposed to meet this past weekend and she didn't even have the decency to call and say, "hey i can't make it." WTF! not only that, but she didn't contact me until i IM'ed her. even that was on some half-assed shit. she sends me some bullshit laden message about trying to call while being stuck in VA. ok, you were stuck, but no fucking body called me all weekend, especially not my wonderfully loonball lil'sis. how the fuck do you try to call someone, but neither my caller ID or voicemail show any signs of a call? guess being polite isn't a freakin' priority nowadays.
it's funny to me, 'cause our loony aunt asked me to promise to keep in touch w/sis. i had to explain to her that i have never put myself out of reach of some form of communication w/sis. sis is a grown ass woman who doesn't appear to be conducting herself in an adult manner. if nothing else, she ain't too polite. can't say she's not bright, but she sure ain't acting like she has mucado sense.
so you know it's like whatever at this point. my last contact clearly stated that i have an extremely low tolerance for bullshit and drama. i'm through at this point. i figure, i can't make her be my sis. besides, i didn't have a sister i knew until i was 12 and then lost her again after 5 years, so i'm kinda used to the non-existent relationship. what am i losing? nada!
on that note, make like the fucking Mavs are a championship quality team!
PEACE
speaking of crizzle fam, my younger sister is true to the genes. i always hoped that she would break away from our mom like i did, but apparently she is unaware of how the darkness consumed her life. she actually said to me that she believes she has/had bad karma. unless our mom changed her name, karma ain't the culprit. i thought we may be able to rebuild since mom is dead, but sis is to fucked up 4 me. she's on some other dumb shit that i ain't even tryin' to share. i should've known better. u gotta wonder about somebody who actively embraces a known family loony after recently escaping an initial one. either way, loony or not, there is still common courtesy.
we were supposed to meet this past weekend and she didn't even have the decency to call and say, "hey i can't make it." WTF! not only that, but she didn't contact me until i IM'ed her. even that was on some half-assed shit. she sends me some bullshit laden message about trying to call while being stuck in VA. ok, you were stuck, but no fucking body called me all weekend, especially not my wonderfully loonball lil'sis. how the fuck do you try to call someone, but neither my caller ID or voicemail show any signs of a call? guess being polite isn't a freakin' priority nowadays.
it's funny to me, 'cause our loony aunt asked me to promise to keep in touch w/sis. i had to explain to her that i have never put myself out of reach of some form of communication w/sis. sis is a grown ass woman who doesn't appear to be conducting herself in an adult manner. if nothing else, she ain't too polite. can't say she's not bright, but she sure ain't acting like she has mucado sense.
so you know it's like whatever at this point. my last contact clearly stated that i have an extremely low tolerance for bullshit and drama. i'm through at this point. i figure, i can't make her be my sis. besides, i didn't have a sister i knew until i was 12 and then lost her again after 5 years, so i'm kinda used to the non-existent relationship. what am i losing? nada!
on that note, make like the fucking Mavs are a championship quality team!
PEACE
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