the trains...the trains...

i've had the music off for the past couple of days. i think having music playing while i sleep was disrupting my rest  pattern.

i'm sitting here now listening to the freight trains moving. not sure how far away the tracks are in miles, but they're a good 10m walk from the rest. the fan on the harddrive bay is preventing me from hearing much else.

it's kind of ironic that my sensitive hearing is what i use to enjoy & create music, but it can cause great irritation. i hear shit that i should be ignoring at times. strange noises the godren make can often disturb me to the point where i get quite upset.

the oldest has a habit of making rather loud random noises w/his mouth, but mumbles whenever we speak to him. it'd be funny if it didn't happen so frequently.

i've been slacking on the e-cises. can't be doing that shit. gotta focus. too many distractions. i have to find better ways of motivating self & blocking out some of the stupid shit that happens within the household.

conditions will not improve in the fashion i desire if i do not maintain proper focus.

make like cooperation from family members is harmful...

PEACE
...be calm...