damn, it's the last day of May already. post 18 life continues to zoom on by.
been working in & around house the last few days. sometimes i forget how moving house music is for me. my love for hip-hop is unquestionable, but house music is a whole other love. kind of reminds me of why i don't believe it's necessarily natural for humans to be monogamous.
huh?
no, really...
it's a communal love type thing. i love both genre's equally in different ways, for different reasons. i believe i could be involved in a communal relationship that involved multiple men & women as long as we all agreed to be w/each other & none of the dudes was bisexual. that's probably real odd as an idea, but it seems fine to me.
anyway, house music is an amazing sounding thing. i find it most fascinating at times because it relates so closely to disco, which everyone tends to claim is dead. such an interesting relationship exists there. there are disco jams that i'm not at all fond of, but many classic disco jams are seen as classic house jams. i can still clearly remember when i was introduced to what many refer to as Chicago style house. that's what killed any idea of me not getting into house at all. the groove is unmistakably, simultaneously fun & erotic. as the song says, "gotta have it..."
make like my crib is gonna get proper landlord attention...
PEACE
...be calm...
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
woes of the big man...
goddamnit!
just finished dozing in my office chair, seeing as i have not slept at all since leaving the gig this AM, & the motherfucker busted on me again...
it wouldn't be all that bad if i did not finally acknowledge that i need to get an office chair made to accommodate my 250lb+ frame. sumumabeyoch...
and least we allow the thought to escape into the universal ether never to be seen or heard from again, the 2-wheel is fucked. the frame is busted. the bike shop is talkin' about $400 to put the old parts on a new frame & $600 for a new bike 2 model years old. i think i need to go to my old bike store...
everything is so goddamned expensive. $ surely cannot buy happiness, but it goes a long motherfucking way towards alleviating many problems experienced in a capitalist society.
life as a small giant...
make like i want to spend $300 on a chair just to squat my ass in...
PEACE
...be calm...
just finished dozing in my office chair, seeing as i have not slept at all since leaving the gig this AM, & the motherfucker busted on me again...
it wouldn't be all that bad if i did not finally acknowledge that i need to get an office chair made to accommodate my 250lb+ frame. sumumabeyoch...
and least we allow the thought to escape into the universal ether never to be seen or heard from again, the 2-wheel is fucked. the frame is busted. the bike shop is talkin' about $400 to put the old parts on a new frame & $600 for a new bike 2 model years old. i think i need to go to my old bike store...
everything is so goddamned expensive. $ surely cannot buy happiness, but it goes a long motherfucking way towards alleviating many problems experienced in a capitalist society.
life as a small giant...
make like i want to spend $300 on a chair just to squat my ass in...
PEACE
...be calm...
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
concrete evidence that i ain't all that crazy...
i attended a Friends school for about 3 years as a kid. somewhere about my 2nd year of school, i became familiar w/Hiroshima & Nagasaki. i'd say i grew up like most kids in the U.S. during the 70's: Vietnam vets got treated like shit, most hippies were synonymous w/addicts, the civil rights movement was successful, etc. since Vietnam was supposedly on some bullshit, all you ever really heard about was WWI & II, Korea wasn't really mentioned either. we thought cops & robbers, cowboys & Indians, and war games were cool as shit.
understanding the true purpose of weaponry, & correspondingly the true power of nuclear arms, makes that shit not so cool anymore. i did not develop my respect & distaste for guns until the last 10 years or so, but nuclear weapons have always been foolishly useless to me. Like most other human developments in weaponry, guns are a tool to resolve human conflict by ultimate threat of permanent removal.
nukes are like unnecessary drama. we're going beyond the ultimate threat of permanent removal w/nukes. would i use mace, a gun, a stun gun, etc. if i thought it was going to fuck me up in the process? hells no. this is clear logically, yet various human organizations recognized as governments have deemed it sensible to perpetuate the era of nuclear weaponry. if that's not crazy as shit, then i'm far more fucked up than what even i can admit.
it isn't a threat when you too have to die when your bluff is called. humans do not respond well to radioactive elements in the environment. i believe Hiroshima & Nagasaki were 1 megaton devices. the modern weaponry tends to be multiple megatons. WTF!
there's does not seem to be such a thing as group counseling for a group of humans so large as to believe this is not insanity.
make like violence is a truly viable means of resolving human conflict...
PEACE
...be calm...
understanding the true purpose of weaponry, & correspondingly the true power of nuclear arms, makes that shit not so cool anymore. i did not develop my respect & distaste for guns until the last 10 years or so, but nuclear weapons have always been foolishly useless to me. Like most other human developments in weaponry, guns are a tool to resolve human conflict by ultimate threat of permanent removal.
nukes are like unnecessary drama. we're going beyond the ultimate threat of permanent removal w/nukes. would i use mace, a gun, a stun gun, etc. if i thought it was going to fuck me up in the process? hells no. this is clear logically, yet various human organizations recognized as governments have deemed it sensible to perpetuate the era of nuclear weaponry. if that's not crazy as shit, then i'm far more fucked up than what even i can admit.
it isn't a threat when you too have to die when your bluff is called. humans do not respond well to radioactive elements in the environment. i believe Hiroshima & Nagasaki were 1 megaton devices. the modern weaponry tends to be multiple megatons. WTF!
there's does not seem to be such a thing as group counseling for a group of humans so large as to believe this is not insanity.
make like violence is a truly viable means of resolving human conflict...
PEACE
...be calm...
Saturday, May 23, 2009
how in the fuck?
somebody tell me who these people are that impregnate scary swollen broads. WTF!
i know & agree that beauty is in the eye, but goddamn...
i saw a chick yesterday that looked like she works as a fast food restaurant dumpster. she had a toddler w/her that was clearly her child. who poked that? she wasn't even a cute chunky. was dude high? was he drunk? WTF!
every once in a while i'll see the jawn w/the dude. even then it's like, WTF were you on cuz...
i understand people gain weight over time. it isn't even a problem that women tend to chunk up after pregnancy. shit happens. it's cool to a point. my thing is how in the hell do you premeditate stroky pokin' a swollemite & manage to impregnate her?
WTF!
stop that shit dude(s)...
make like i love obeastliness...
PEACE
...be calm...
i know & agree that beauty is in the eye, but goddamn...
i saw a chick yesterday that looked like she works as a fast food restaurant dumpster. she had a toddler w/her that was clearly her child. who poked that? she wasn't even a cute chunky. was dude high? was he drunk? WTF!
every once in a while i'll see the jawn w/the dude. even then it's like, WTF were you on cuz...
i understand people gain weight over time. it isn't even a problem that women tend to chunk up after pregnancy. shit happens. it's cool to a point. my thing is how in the hell do you premeditate stroky pokin' a swollemite & manage to impregnate her?
WTF!
stop that shit dude(s)...
make like i love obeastliness...
PEACE
...be calm...
Thursday, May 21, 2009
when the bladder says go...
i am constantly fighting the shit in me that says "fuck it."
it's goddamn hard. sadly, i've managed to arrange an environment that provides little if any moral support for the path that i have chosen to follow. clearly this is not an issue for those who consistently make moves in life. i am apparently not one of those humans.
regardless of the reason, i tend to regularly check self in ways that can be seriously detrimental to progress in the face of blatant haterism & adversity. it's motherfucking frustrating.
you'd think i'd be used to getting fucked over by those who have been designated as fam, but i'm not. it still fucks me up.
no matter what kind of support system i try to establish around myself, it seems to never quite be what i envisioned or intended. perhaps i'm trying to fight the soloist tendency of my entire life. i don't think it is meant for humans to be truly solo. in the same breath, i find i'm regularly highly irritated by the presence of other humans.
peeps generally get on my goddamned nerves.
litterers, idiots, fat people, noisy fuckers, etc. always seems to be some irritant somewhere.
it's a daily struggle to maintain, & most cats around me have no idea whatsoever how violent and/or malicious my thoughts can be sometimes.
make like any of my teams won their game 1 in the NBA semis...
PEACE
...be calm...
it's goddamn hard. sadly, i've managed to arrange an environment that provides little if any moral support for the path that i have chosen to follow. clearly this is not an issue for those who consistently make moves in life. i am apparently not one of those humans.
regardless of the reason, i tend to regularly check self in ways that can be seriously detrimental to progress in the face of blatant haterism & adversity. it's motherfucking frustrating.
you'd think i'd be used to getting fucked over by those who have been designated as fam, but i'm not. it still fucks me up.
no matter what kind of support system i try to establish around myself, it seems to never quite be what i envisioned or intended. perhaps i'm trying to fight the soloist tendency of my entire life. i don't think it is meant for humans to be truly solo. in the same breath, i find i'm regularly highly irritated by the presence of other humans.
peeps generally get on my goddamned nerves.
litterers, idiots, fat people, noisy fuckers, etc. always seems to be some irritant somewhere.
it's a daily struggle to maintain, & most cats around me have no idea whatsoever how violent and/or malicious my thoughts can be sometimes.
make like any of my teams won their game 1 in the NBA semis...
PEACE
...be calm...
Sunday, May 17, 2009
ramblings of a madman...
i love watching movies/films. i dig porn too, but regular movies are my shit. wouldn't call myself a buff, but i do try to get at least 9 flicks a month from Netflix if i can. between flicks & music, i try to distract my mind from what i often perceive to be stress or misery.
books work for this as well, but i tend to prefer watching a nice hyper intense 5.1 audio enhanced video presentation. that said, i have rarely if ever found a film more enjoyable than the original written version. this includes graphic novels/comic books. movies always have to loose content and/or meaning for comprehensiveness and/or time consideration.
the original Star Wars may be one of the few occasions i can readily recall where i prefer the film to the book. Bourne is way better in book form. the films didn't even try to handle the meat of the books' stories. this likely was the best approach. i don't believe the average mind would have perceived the films the same way had they directly reflected the books' original stories.
all this leads me to a commercial i've seen a couple of times in the past few hours:
The Taking of Pelham 1 2 3
i'm a fan of actors. i sometimes choose to view or not based on the talent used to create a film. i cannot stand Colin Farrell. i've tried repeatedly, until my brain threatened to kick my ass, to watch films starring this guy. bleech! Denzel Washington is highly reliable. this has been especially the case in his action oriented roles. i believe i've liked all the ones that he's made that i've seen. this one looks to be promising. i'll be putting this joint in my queue accordingly.
i've heard of the film from back in the day, but i didn't know it was based on a book. i'll be looking to read the book now. that and watch the original version of the film. i like to watch both when i peep a known remake. the comparison/contrast can be interesting. i'm not looking for the TV remake. i'm good on that one.
make like i miss the friggin' theater experience...
PEACE
...be calm...
books work for this as well, but i tend to prefer watching a nice hyper intense 5.1 audio enhanced video presentation. that said, i have rarely if ever found a film more enjoyable than the original written version. this includes graphic novels/comic books. movies always have to loose content and/or meaning for comprehensiveness and/or time consideration.
the original Star Wars may be one of the few occasions i can readily recall where i prefer the film to the book. Bourne is way better in book form. the films didn't even try to handle the meat of the books' stories. this likely was the best approach. i don't believe the average mind would have perceived the films the same way had they directly reflected the books' original stories.
all this leads me to a commercial i've seen a couple of times in the past few hours:
The Taking of Pelham 1 2 3
i'm a fan of actors. i sometimes choose to view or not based on the talent used to create a film. i cannot stand Colin Farrell. i've tried repeatedly, until my brain threatened to kick my ass, to watch films starring this guy. bleech! Denzel Washington is highly reliable. this has been especially the case in his action oriented roles. i believe i've liked all the ones that he's made that i've seen. this one looks to be promising. i'll be putting this joint in my queue accordingly.
i've heard of the film from back in the day, but i didn't know it was based on a book. i'll be looking to read the book now. that and watch the original version of the film. i like to watch both when i peep a known remake. the comparison/contrast can be interesting. i'm not looking for the TV remake. i'm good on that one.
make like i miss the friggin' theater experience...
PEACE
...be calm...
Saturday, May 16, 2009
what wonderful torture...
what awesome news do i get upon arrival at my quite hateful place of employment?
i get to work w/motor-fucking-mouth...
YAAAAAY!
this guy's presence is irritating. cap'n clown comes in & changes the titty tube from cage fighting to whatever bullshit i'm not at all interested in on The History Channel. don't get me wrong, history is the shit. the probs is this crackalacks uncannily undesirable ability to find shit that's uninteresting to watch & then pass the fuck out. did i mention that he turns the fucking volume up?
some fucker stole my peace & hid my joy. i want my shits back you fuckolian...
what do you do...
make like this guy doesn't eat a whale cock...
PEACE
...be calm...
i get to work w/motor-fucking-mouth...
YAAAAAY!
this guy's presence is irritating. cap'n clown comes in & changes the titty tube from cage fighting to whatever bullshit i'm not at all interested in on The History Channel. don't get me wrong, history is the shit. the probs is this crackalacks uncannily undesirable ability to find shit that's uninteresting to watch & then pass the fuck out. did i mention that he turns the fucking volume up?
some fucker stole my peace & hid my joy. i want my shits back you fuckolian...
what do you do...
make like this guy doesn't eat a whale cock...
PEACE
...be calm...
Friday, May 15, 2009
had an idea, but completely forgot it...
now how the fuck does this happen?
easy, i don't fucking make an entry when i'm actually thinking about it.
so yo, WTF is the problem here?
no friggin' idea at all.
somebody gimme some motherfuckin' loot. can't buy peace of mind, but i can buy a whole lot of shit to distract my attentions from the lack of said peace.
it'd be great to get some truly restful sleep.
make like i remember WTF i was originally intending to post...
PEACE
...be calm...
easy, i don't fucking make an entry when i'm actually thinking about it.
so yo, WTF is the problem here?
no friggin' idea at all.
somebody gimme some motherfuckin' loot. can't buy peace of mind, but i can buy a whole lot of shit to distract my attentions from the lack of said peace.
it'd be great to get some truly restful sleep.
make like i remember WTF i was originally intending to post...
PEACE
...be calm...
appetite for seduction...
i can't imagine not enjoying sexual relations. i suppose i can imagine it, but i have difficulty understanding why anyone would purposely avoid such activity. if you're not afflicted w/any sexual ailments or any other contagions, why deprive self?
here's a new slogan: if you ain't fuckin', your life must be suckin'...
i suppose that could be somewhat insensitive, but IDFC...
i don't think i could be prudish if someone offered me millions to do so.
make like your genitals will decay upon safely pleasurable use...
PEACE
...be calm...
here's a new slogan: if you ain't fuckin', your life must be suckin'...
i suppose that could be somewhat insensitive, but IDFC...
i don't think i could be prudish if someone offered me millions to do so.
make like your genitals will decay upon safely pleasurable use...
PEACE
...be calm...
Monday, May 11, 2009
moving at phenomenal rates of speed...
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
i'm actually posting some shit as i thought of it...
awesome feeling.
this whole operation is based on the capture of the somewhat erratic stream of my conscious human experience.
vanity perhaps, but my mind often moves faster than what i can always capture.
shit's fucked up like that i guess. leads to certain creative abilities, but can also be a functional challenge.
being calm is highly difficult at times. perhaps this is why i realize the true importance of functioning calmly as a human being.
it is difficult for me to find peace w/o calmness. calmness is not something that i easily achieve.
when i can slow down the processes of my mind, i either am or approach the heights of my abilities.
this is my life's challenge.
what a fucking task.
make like my life has an absolutely zero drama quotient...
PEACE
...be calm...
i'm actually posting some shit as i thought of it...
awesome feeling.
this whole operation is based on the capture of the somewhat erratic stream of my conscious human experience.
vanity perhaps, but my mind often moves faster than what i can always capture.
shit's fucked up like that i guess. leads to certain creative abilities, but can also be a functional challenge.
being calm is highly difficult at times. perhaps this is why i realize the true importance of functioning calmly as a human being.
it is difficult for me to find peace w/o calmness. calmness is not something that i easily achieve.
when i can slow down the processes of my mind, i either am or approach the heights of my abilities.
this is my life's challenge.
what a fucking task.
make like my life has an absolutely zero drama quotient...
PEACE
...be calm...
Saturday, May 09, 2009
and ye shall findeth vast quantifications of nada...
i'm still here...
looks like i accidentally surpassed another blogstone: most posts in a month (04/09:19)!
yay boogies.
i like getting intoxicated. i'm probably fucking up my liver & eyesight worse than what they already are, but i shall continue nevertheless. i will remain oddly unconcerned about becoming an alcoholic. i don't actually drink to drown my sorrows. that shit doesn't work anyway. you can only stay twizzled for so long. let's just say i take my vacations in spirited glasses full of ice & fruit juices, since i can't quite afford a real vacation.
mayhaps if i just became a Christian or something i could become a Christianoholic instead...
naaaah!
ye slurpeth and ye passeth out...
make like i won't fuck w/some new beats this weekend...
PEACE
...be calm...
looks like i accidentally surpassed another blogstone: most posts in a month (04/09:19)!
yay boogies.
i like getting intoxicated. i'm probably fucking up my liver & eyesight worse than what they already are, but i shall continue nevertheless. i will remain oddly unconcerned about becoming an alcoholic. i don't actually drink to drown my sorrows. that shit doesn't work anyway. you can only stay twizzled for so long. let's just say i take my vacations in spirited glasses full of ice & fruit juices, since i can't quite afford a real vacation.
mayhaps if i just became a Christian or something i could become a Christianoholic instead...
naaaah!
ye slurpeth and ye passeth out...
make like i won't fuck w/some new beats this weekend...
PEACE
...be calm...
Friday, May 08, 2009
god doesn't give a fuck...
only humans are worried about what god thinks. god could could not care less.
fucking idiots...
i'm tired of my life being. i guess i should say being boring, but that seems redundant at the moment.
i'm bored as fuck w/my life. it'd be nice if i did a better job of surrounding myself w/more positively oriented like-minded peers, but oh well.
haven't done such a great job of putting together my support team over the years. didn't get much from the donors, & it often seems that the fam that i tried to put together is also not the most supportive.
guess i didn't have much to go on when it came to knowing what supportive personalities are like.
no excuses...
i'm honest w/self just like w/everything else. i seem to not like the fact that i am stuck where i am as far as my employment, living, & moral support arrangements are concerned. can't blame anyone. i make my decisions. sometimes they can be highly suspect.
anyways, fucking complaining about it ain't doin' shit. gotta keep trying to find ways to defeat the bullshit. easy to say, fucking hard to perpetuate.
must defeat my greatest hater w/vigor, passion, & focus...
make like i love my fuckin' gigolon emploicus...
PEACE
...be calm...
fucking idiots...
i'm tired of my life being. i guess i should say being boring, but that seems redundant at the moment.
i'm bored as fuck w/my life. it'd be nice if i did a better job of surrounding myself w/more positively oriented like-minded peers, but oh well.
haven't done such a great job of putting together my support team over the years. didn't get much from the donors, & it often seems that the fam that i tried to put together is also not the most supportive.
guess i didn't have much to go on when it came to knowing what supportive personalities are like.
no excuses...
i'm honest w/self just like w/everything else. i seem to not like the fact that i am stuck where i am as far as my employment, living, & moral support arrangements are concerned. can't blame anyone. i make my decisions. sometimes they can be highly suspect.
anyways, fucking complaining about it ain't doin' shit. gotta keep trying to find ways to defeat the bullshit. easy to say, fucking hard to perpetuate.
must defeat my greatest hater w/vigor, passion, & focus...
make like i love my fuckin' gigolon emploicus...
PEACE
...be calm...
Thursday, May 07, 2009
i talk to myself out loud regularly...
goddamn right i do.
it's a whole hell of a lot less irritating than talking to peeps who either don't like to listen, or don't shut the fuck up when a conversation is over...
like this fucker here...
this guy sucks worse than unrefrigerated month old chitterlings stew on a hot summer's day.
never have i had to regularly endure such a despicable personality for such an extended period of time.
i can't fucking stand being around this clown-faced basta'd...
fuck'im
make like this guy is the friggin' bomb...
PEACE
...be calm...
it's a whole hell of a lot less irritating than talking to peeps who either don't like to listen, or don't shut the fuck up when a conversation is over...
like this fucker here...
this guy sucks worse than unrefrigerated month old chitterlings stew on a hot summer's day.
never have i had to regularly endure such a despicable personality for such an extended period of time.
i can't fucking stand being around this clown-faced basta'd...
fuck'im
make like this guy is the friggin' bomb...
PEACE
...be calm...
Saturday, May 02, 2009
i gotta take a shit...
i hate dumping at the gig. the paper's thin as all hell & i just don't feel comfortable.
can someone please explain to me why i can't get a comfortable pair of drawers?
that'll be all for today, 'cause i'm not in the mood for thinking...
make like i'm actually going to win the motherfucking lottery one day...
PEACE
...be calm...
can someone please explain to me why i can't get a comfortable pair of drawers?
that'll be all for today, 'cause i'm not in the mood for thinking...
make like i'm actually going to win the motherfucking lottery one day...
PEACE
...be calm...
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