don't ask why, just live life...

this may come off as overly dramatic, but my life often irritates me. i've done some reading on depression that suggests depression can cause such views. technically, your circumstances in life are neither good nor bad. it's all up to the individual's perception of the events. that sounds pretty hot from a universal standpoint, but it doesn't explain some of the dumb shit that i've had to deal with in my life. i'll be the 1st to say that much if not all of the dumb shit stems from some bullshit decision that i've made, but there are still those circumstances that no one has any control over. i've been known to remark that if i believed in luck, i'd have to say i have bad luck. problem is, i don't believe in luck. funny thing is, i'd still have to say i have bad luck. [ba-dum-dum! tsss!]

for example, my car. it fucked up on me on Tuesday. i did buy it. that would be the bad decision. i also got the trannie rebuilt instead of copping a different ride. that could be considered another bad decision. thing is though, you can't spend life looking back trying to figure out which decisions were not the best. it's good to not repeat mistakes, but you can't sit around playing what if. that shit is a great time waster. needless to say, when shit is fucked up, i still tend to do it.

another example is my wife. without going into details, she fits the bill of another in the line of crazy women that i've introduced into my life. you've got to wonder what is wrong when a person does the same shit over and over even if you express some disliking of said behavior. WTF! specifically, financial shit. again without going into detail, with her, it's the same shit over and over again. she does not like to be financially responsible in such a way as to not cause problems for the family as a whole. basically, she'd buy some shoes before she bought us some food. ask her why and she'd be like, "i felt like it." again, WTF! apparently, this is the fucking theme for everyone but me. not WTF, but "i felt like it."

it must be fun to just do whatever the fuck you feel like doing. the best part is, when you get busted doing something you know you aren't supposed to do, just nonchalantly act like whatever. that must be some cool ass shit. not that i would know. shit, every time i even tip-toe near irresponsibility, it bites a fucking chunk outta my ass. that's why i don't rob banks or sell drugs. i don't want to go to prison. most cats don't think about shit like that. they're like "i felt like it." boom! go rob that bank or sell those drugs. anyways, that's my rant for today.

make like my fucking sinuses aren't bothering me...

PEACE