gatdammit!

why did all my picks lose this weekend? i didn't really pick the Seahawks/Bears game, so i guess it ain't too bad, but dayum! being that my team totally sucked this season, i had to watch those who did not. i'm not a die hard fan of any 1 team really anyway. the nearest thing to an exception would be Pittsburgh, but again, they sucked this year. so, on that note, how 'bout them Eagles? better yet on the birds tip, WTF happened to Baltimore? sheesh! talk about somebody not showing up. was Jamal Lewis back in prison or something? [okay, i know, that was unnecessary...] i'm not mad at Philadelphia. at least they put up a fight. much like the 1st half of the season though, they forget to let Westbrook do his thing. considering what little chance he got, he made the most of it. definitely should have given him more opps. probably would have made a significant difference. but hey, what the hell do i really know about football?

well, that's a post as far as i'm concerned. soon, my peoples should be providing me with a link to some interesting audio happenings. when i get it, i'll post it, but nobody reads this blog so...

make like it matters what i post in this blog...

PEACE

Sappy New Year!

no, just kidding. happy new year. this is likely one of the only holidays that i continue to celebrate. although the calendar under which we operate is a European convention, i follow the annual celebration to mark another year of human existence. i won't get into my thoughts on the universal irrelevancies of time. humans are truly the oddest animal known to exist on this planet. such a disregard for nature exists within human social convention.

anyway, since my system is being lazily reconfigured, i've had to make far fewer entries than i would have liked. i've actually not really felt like typing a few times when i started but didn't finish entries. there were also some occasions where the PC did some dumb shit and i lost entire entries. usually when that happens i don't feel like retyping my thoughts. this is especially true for the more verbose entries. [when are they not verbose? blah...blah...blah...]

well, the '07 is coming. i've got to get my shit together. i'm finally finished with undergrad, but i still feel like i haven't accomplished much. so what are my goals for the coming year? music, music, music. i've got to get my music on. between that and getting my finances more ordered, i'm pretty sealed on what i'm trying to do. gotta get my Allen & Heath and a piano. i'm supposed to be teaching myself how to use my keyboard and music theory. this music is what i'm doing. i definitely need to get into the studio more in '07 as well. speaking of which, gotta contact some cats about that...

on that note, get yo' shit together in '07 too...

make like Saddam had a chance...damn!

PEACE

ours is not a pleasant world...

call me the greater hater or whatever. a co-worker of mine made some references that i clearly do not share to the greatness of living in the U.S. of A. yes this country seems great, but that is only because the rest of the world in many cases is that much more fucked up. sure, there is the half empty, half full concept, but it really is not applicable here. consider the number of multi-national businesses that either operate out of or primarily function on the basis of the U.S. economy. it is highly likely that these companies operate on global scales in order to take advantage of the weaker economies, labor laws and trade arrangements of other countries. if you ever get a chance to check out the Wal-Mart documentary, it presents a one-sided but interesting look at how these companies exploit the most valuable resource available to business: the human. the reality is that capitalism functions in such a way as to fully exhaust the available resources for maximum profit gain. this means all resources, including humans. people always talk about natural resources and how they are abused, but you rarely hear about the abuse of human resources unless it is within the context of sweatshops, etc.

what would make me rant about such things at this wonderful time of the year? this wonderful time of the year. what the hell? how can it be so wonderful? can you say Iraq? can you say George W. Bush is a professionally trained idiot? the wool has been pulled so freakin' far over so many people's eyes at one time that people are now shitting sweaters and suits straight out of their asses and ears. how is it that people can give to Toys for Tots for the Christmas holiday, but the very same people that benefit from such programs suffer any other time of the year? what a crock of shit. this is the most financially affluent country in the world, but there are still homeless people, poor people, illiterate people, and starving people. how the fuck does that work? i laugh at the people who use lame ass stereotypes to brush away these blatant contradictions to the greatness of this country. manifest destiny continues to shit on the little people.

sadly, the political process is functional. i say sadly because the people who ought to benefit most from the process either do not or cannot use it to their utmost advantage. i am not a conspiracy theorist. i do not think it is a coincidence or mystery that less affluent sections of society do not participate in the political process. consider that participation in said process has certain requirements. for the sake of the current proposition, let us completely disregard the financial requirements. lets look at something as simple as educational level. many less affluent members of society have limited educational background. the reasons vary and some are self-inflicted. the point is how can you educate yourself on the political climate when you have not educated yourself? there also has to be the consideration of the educated apathetics. these people remind me of myself when i wasted away a full scholarship to college: stupid. much like i am literally paying for that mistake many years later [goddamn these loans], these people pay a high price for political inactivity.

shit, there are entire religious belief systems that encourage their members to not be involved in the political process. that is utterly insane. first of all, how can you pay taxes and not have a concern for who is spending that money, and how it is being spent. that is some crazy ass shit. of course this is all my opinion, but it is not opinion based on conjecture or assumption. these are opinions based on years of study and observation. my basic point is that shit is not okay. there should be far more concern than what currently exists. i think there should have been a revolution by now, but people are so dumbified by the crumbs that we get that it has not happened yet. i think those in power have studied and learned a great deal from the major social upheavals throughout the last 3 or 4 centuries. most significantly the French and European American Revolutions. just imagine if the economically disadvantaged members of the global society decided to rise up and demand a more equitable distribution of global resources. yes, there would likely be a great deal of bloodshed, but it would be worth it in the end. the fear of the unknown and feigned stability have kept many people from making such assessments of the world today. i tend to see a bigger picture...

make like i should be celebrating a European holiday...

PEACE

still working on the new system...

okay, this computer i'm using sucks biznalls. i just typed 2 sentences and was working on a 3rd and this slow ass thing became unresponsive. as a result, i made that cardinal error of clicking more than 1 time to get a response. damn thing highlighted all my text and erased it. bastard! anyway, it's been real slow these last few weeks. i don't seem to be able to quite get myself together. i am getting way too big, but i won't go outside. i'm turning into a fatass 'cause i don't exercise anymore. i know i'm doing it, but i won't stop myself. all i do is sleep and eat and futz w/the PC(s). there is work, but all i do at work is sit on my fat ass and watch cameras for 10 hours a shift. that's not gonna lose me any weight at all. i'm getting so friggin' big i'm not enjoying eating that much. went to the buffet for breakfast and didn't even enjoy it.

i gotta snap outta this shit. seems like i took my nose dive in '98 and tried to off myself, i ain't been quite right. don't know if i ever will be. can't quit though. gotta keep tryin' to get my shit together...

make like T.O. isn't an asshole...

PEACE

m to the i friggin' a

life is fucking grand. i am comfortably intoxicated at this point in time. one of the great things about being under the influence is the utter sense of relaxation. i don't drink often, but i appreciate the ability to have this state of mind. unfortunately, it is in my nature to be somewhat uptight. i do not seem to have an innate ability to relax. this is very unfortunate. it may explain why i sometimes find it difficult to sleep. i can be somewhat uptight. my wife complains about it and i must agree. oddly, she could stand to be somewhat more uptight. anyways, life is what it is, but how one interprets circumstances makes a big difference. being uptight can skew ones interpretation. long story short, i just get rather irritated about stupid shit sometimes.

anyways, i have not been posting very often over the last few weeks. between my PC being down and me working, i haven't been making many posts. that may change since i've finally finished putting together my BEAST PC. now i've got to install all the pertinent software. on that note....

make like T.O. has any goddamn sense at all...

PEACE

chronic lack of motivation...

that should be my new name. either that or captain procrastinator. anyways, i'm still pursuing my audio production goals. rather slowly and non-deliberately probably, but pursuing nonetheless. i have not felt like posting anything lately. been too tired. besides, to revisit an old theme, it's not like anyone responds to these posts. perhaps if there were some actual dialogue developing from this, i might post more. anyways, nothing clever today. just felt the need to post something...

just so no one knows...

blah. blah. blah. yackity smackity.

smizzle fizzle dazzle dizzle. alflam kiz miz filal cablippy. shiggle ding flang go fongle.

if i actually talked like that, maybe my life would be more interesting. doubtful.

no loan. no car. gotta save up to replace Needa. asked my wife if she wants to sell or fix Needa, but she hasn't gotten back to me yet.

i'm fucking pissed off. end of story.

act like i give a shit...

PEACE

more work = less posts...

that's pretty self explanatory.

looks like i might not be as assed out as i thought in the whip department. i always said i didn't want a note, but if i try to wait until i save enough to get a more reliable vehicle, i'll have to rely on Crepta to get to the gig in the suburbs. i'm not really feeling that shit. there is actually a bus that stops near the gig, but that turns my 40m commute into a 150m commute. big difference considering sleep, family and life activity arrangements. i actually like riding public transportation (PT), but when it's time to grocery shop or get to locations outside the city proper, PT just doesn't get it done consistently. anyway, i've got a couple of lines on some vehicles and i actually got pre-approved for from my preferred financial institution. i just have to find something within the budget and keep the note under $150. that's the goal. now i've got 30 days to find a ride and make sure it's safe. that's not an easy task, but it's good to know i've got the option...

make like i ain't gettin' ridda Needa...

PEACE

Ineeda...

new motherfuckin' car.

nuff said. well not really, but the fucking engine has a bad cylinder with fucking oil in it. isn't that just the shit? and how about i didn't find this out until after i bought new tires ($200) and got a tune-up & oil change ($225). ain't that some hot shit? $425 later and i find out this piece of shit car has finally given up on me. oh well, WTF can i do? i could spend another $950+ to get a used engine installed! [FUCKING YAAY!] am i going to do that nut ass shit? of course not. i'm going to sell Needa as is and try to get what cash i can out of her ass. unfortunately, i don't have enough saved up yet to get another joint and use Needa as a trade. sucks to be my ride.

speaking of sucks i gotta start paying off my school debt soon. i found out i owe $300+ in monthly installments for the next 15-20 years. [HOLYSHITWOW!] good to see someone will be experiencing some financial gain from my recent status change to college graduate. too bad it ain't me yet...

ah well, at least the Steelers won the Super Bowl last season. of course, that has nothing to do with this season. [SHEESH!] i had to drop Rothlisberger from my fantasy squad on Yahoo! ah well, guess i can't monopolize taking an 'L.' too bad i don't get paid for mine like they've been. imagine that: professional athletes not getting paid when they lose games. sounds too much like right...

make like my car isn't shitting all over me...

PEACE

#1 reason to have steady income...

so you can buy a fucking house.

i'm tired of renting. i applied for a mortgage w/my local financial service provider. doesn't look good though. my savings isn't like that yet, and my employment history isn't the most loan friendly. anyways, i tried this a coupla years ago, but i had an asshole landlord who managed to fuck that shit up. this is some extremely important shit. basically i wanna build a studio in my crib. key part to that fucking sentence is MY. i don't wanna be moving equipment around and i don't wanna have to keep getting permission to make alterations to my domicile. not really a difficult decision: gotta get my own crizzle.

i'm not a materialistic type, but i would like to own properties. notice the 's.' that's not an accident. my problem is my late ass start at getting my fucking life to be some type of productive. at least that's one of my problems anyway. probably more significant is the inordinate ratio of lint to cash in my pockets. it's rather difficult to manage your debts using lint...

make like i'm just a rich fucker...

PEACE